I had been looking forward to beach retreat for quite awhile. I was excited to try out our trailer and Judah was spending the weekend with my mom which meant I only had Cohen, which meant I wouldn't have to be chasing anyone around and worrying about them falling into the fire. It was going to be a semi-relaxing weekend for me. Then Judah got croup. (see other post) I think I spent the whole retreat in a mental state of chaos. I felt like a bad mom for leaving Judah and kept thinking I needed to go home. But Judah was doing just fine with my mom. I can't even count how many conversations Justin and I had that I told him I was going home and then didn't go. I was hoping to connect with beauty school dropout in Portland but in the chaos before I left I didn't get to contact her and therefore felt like I snubbed her. So I just want to say that I am so sorry and I was hoping we could meet at the Saturday market. Totally my bad for not getting in touch with you. Between feeling bad about that and then the mommy guilt of leaving Judah, I think I had a stomach ache the entire retreat.
It was just a weird retreat for me. I spent most of the time wishing I was with Judah, but I know if I had been home I would have been wishing I was at the retreat with Justin. I would have been torn either way. I had made a commitment to being at the retreat and would have felt really bad if I had backed out on that. I know Justin would have understood (obviously) but I also know he was counting on me for things like transporting people and helping with the food.
I am really glad I went. I love our trailer. We didn't spent much time in it besides sleeping, but I can already say with confidence that I love it. I enjoyed the time I got to spend with the youth and I felt like I got to spend some good one on one time with Cohen. I kind of wish I had stayed for the last night, but I really missed Judah.
It feels good to be home.
3 comments:
Oh no worries about not being able to meet up. You had so much on your plate. That was a lot to handle sick boy. Being a great wife,youth leader.
I love the picture of the boys in the camper. how cute is Cohen in his hat.
We can visit this summer. I'm sure we will come up to your area.
OH and glad you like your camper :)
Sorry about Judah's croup :( Maddie was sick last week. I hope she didn't spread germs. She always gets sick after MOPS...ugh! But she doesn't have croup. But from what I understand you can have the virus and not get the croupy cough. But Maddie wasn't sick till Monday. So glad he's doing good though.
Life has lots of tough choices. Sounds like it was a bit of a rough weekend for you. Remember that your kids always trump previous engagements though. So, once your kid is sick or in jail, you're no longer obligated to do whatever it was you had planned. That's where I stand anyway.
So your garden looks yummy! Can we come over for salads soon? :) My mom eats radish sandwiches. Don't know if they are any good...but she swears by them. Butter and radish, that's all she puts on them.
ew, gross to the radish/butter sandwiches!! :)
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